I try not to be fool enough to speak into situations I don’t fully understand in blind attempts to help. But no one’s ever called me the smartest of fellows. So, here’s my best shot:
I don’t think anyone can answer for anyone but themselves. But, were it me, I’d ask if I was asking the right question. Might, “Should I find a lost passion?” be a better question? Some of my exes are better left exes. Or, “Was a passion lost ever really a passion?” I think of “passion” from its root word which means something we suffer involuntarily. We can’t help it. I’ve seen people who like reading, who think they might like writing, learn that they don’t. Or learn that they’re not good at it. Or that they don’t want to put in the time (20 years?) to get good at it. All of these revelations can involve painful processes.
I write daily and am miserable for much of it. Only, I’m more miserable if I don’t. I face constant rejection and criticism, exposing myself (I’m terribly introverted) for very little money. I’ve invested thousands upon thousands of dollars and countless hours honing a craft on a downward trend. If I could do something else, I really would. Ten years ago, I met with a very famous and commercially successful writer at a conference (they only met with me bc of a writing program we both attended). They told me, if I can do anything else at all, to do that instead. I tried listening. For years. I couldn’t stay away. Publishing is a shadow of the industry it once was. With internet and social media, the world is flooded with voices. As an art form, it takes too long to create and too long for the consumer to consume. Paintings or songs can be made so much faster and be taken in very quickly. Alas, writing has become how I process the world and how I express myself. Anyway, that very well could be BAD advice for you. That’s just me.
It could be that you’re depressed about other things happening or not happening in your life, and you’ve hung your hopes on this thing which may be a real hope or a placeholder–I’ve done this before. I don’t have enough information. But, if writing doesn’t make you happy, and happy is what you want to be, it may blessedly not be your art form. I know it’s not that serious for everyone; it is for me. Sorry if that’s a downer. If it’s bad advice, don’t take it. Hope you find what you’re looking for.