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Nov 10: 1725
Nov 11: 2546
MtD: 20,883
On Thursday, I pushed an extra 20 words out, just so I would not end the day at 1705… just one of those “that’s too weird to report” feelings about 1705. lol.
I think I am going to need to schedule a day off from writing soon. We’ll see.
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Today’s been terrible in the writing sense, so much so I don’t even bother showing the numbers. I wrote a discussion I enjoyed writing a lot, though.
“It would be better if you left this wild goose chase, S. Sailors will always have ghost stories, and you don’t want to cause a panic. I hope.”
“O ye of little faith. I know what I’m doing.”
“Like when you crashed a Council meeting with a fleet of angry click hot on your heels?”
“That wasn’t my fault!”
“Mm-hmm. My point stands.”
“This is a real risk, Goldilocks.”
“He has this weird vendetta against me. Really, it’s growing pretty old. I wish he’d stop already.”
“Maybe you should’ve handled the break-up better.”
“Details. Or are you actually jealous, Goldilocks?”
“Dream on. If I were, I’d be hunting him rather than bugging you.”
“Wait, you’ve bugged me?”
"That’s not – "
“So you’ll rather let him slander my good name tham give me a hand? I’m hurt.”
“You’re slandering your good name all by yourself, S.”
“You wound me.” He presses his open palm at his chest. “Anyway, that’s no reason for unprofessional behaviour. I mean, you’re not hunting me.”
Today I wrote: 2000
Progress to date: 28,000
I was really hoping to get a double-day or thereabouts in for progress because I’m coming very close to the end of a scene/section in my chapter, but alas it was not to be. Oh well. I’m keeping it up steadily enough, and I can finish the section tomorrow instead.
Wrote: +5,127 words today
Progress-to-date: 5,011 words for CT:OS, 21,964 words for Merry Crisis (26,965 total)
Thought I’d get no time to write today, but managed to squeeze in a quick scene in between lunch and a pottery exhibition. Unexpected, and awesome! Things are cruising along quite nicely for Merry Crisis, I think because I’m always excited to revisit something I haven’t worked on in a while.
I am happy for all of your hard work. I wish I could make so good numbers. But In a way even if makes me feel embarrassment my numbers seen the rest of you doing so well, give me some strength to keep trying.
But half of you write more in a day or two that I do in a month.
I’m still at 0 words for NANO. Then again, I’m not really participating. Unless you count wanting to pick up that MerMay fic (yes, I know it’s not May, but the last two times I missed out on writing during that month entirely so I’d better get an early start.)
Yeah, I know it is difficult to start. But You can Cecilia. Why don’t you try just to write a paragraph today. The first step is important you can write!
I’ll try it tomorrow. It’s something I have an outline for already, so it’s not entirely shooting in the dark.
Normally I have a regular word count goal of 4k words a week. I have struggled to reach that goal and failed at least half the time. I do think that it has helped me build a bit of the rhythm needed for this, even though I now need to write almost x2.5 as many words a week.
I put a lot of focus in doing nothing other than writing for this month. I even precooked all of my dinners for a week so I don’t have to take the time every night to do it. I also have been able to sneak in writing while at work. I have been very fortunate. Even with that I missed last week’s word count goal I set for myself.
I’ve been trying NaNoWriMo off and on for nearly 15 years and this is honestly the best I’ve ever done. Probably from my now defunct social life and from the mentality of “this is crap but I need to keep going. Its about the words not the ideas.” and “December is for editing and relaxing”.
in 2019 for a contest I did 100k in a month. I have achieved Nanowrimo several years.
My problem is psychological. I want publish a game sometime soon. But that generates a inmense preasure on me. That creates a perfect storm mixed with my fear to falure and anxiety.
I know I will fail, I feel all is hopeless and it doesn’t matter how hard I try. I will fail as always.
So for each word I write need four time more will power that it should need if I had any hope about my writing. I just write using my stubborness to not give up,
For anyone who struggles with word count, I’d recommend keeping track of progress with “time worked” instead. That way you aren’t comparing yourself to others progress. Some people write faster than others, so a comparison might bring down your confidence unnecessarily
If I watch how many time I have wasted I would bust of tears. But I suppose it is an alternative for more optimistic people
Well maybe you should write like you normally would (if you can get into that mindset). You know how productive that can be already when your focus is not to publish. Try to focus on your second and third drafts being more publishable. Let your first draft be fun.
For Neil Gaiman’s Masterclass he likes to let the ideas come in the first draft and use the other drafts to make it seem like he knew what he was doing and being clever the whole time.
https://www.masterclass.com/classes/neil-gaiman-teaches-the-art-of-storytelling
Maybe, This game it was supposed to be for the second vampire jam. But I doubt I will present it. I still remembering the shame I commited with my horrible game last year everyone hated.
Today I wrote almost 1k at least. So it is good something. Now I only need talent and grammar knowledge.
Sorry everyone I should be cheering all of you that are doing a great job, But right know I am in a very dark angry with myself mood.
That… would actually make it worse for me, I’m writing way slower than my normal writing speed is 
I know that feeling. But you are writing everyday and very regular numbers. So you are doing well in my eyes.
That’s kinda the point though. I don’t mean writing speed, I mean the actual amount of time you sit down and try to work. Don’t worry about how much you write, just worry about writing
I think you don’t get it - if I clock eight hours and have only five hundred words to show for it, I’m only getting depressed. I mean, it’d be only five hundred words anyway, but it’s worse if I think how long I had to work for it.
I will talk just for myself, but many people with anxiety or just depressed we see the time we spend doing something as wasted, in a negative light.
Like for example:
“I waste four hours writing this?! How I can be so damn bad!”
A positive person could see it as I was able to write during four hours straight today. I supose. I have never seen any positive in that tbh.
Maybe this will help?
