The Godfeather loves you all so much

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Thank you so much for revisiting and sharing. I became more active on the forum after you’d stepped away, but had lurked here a while before that and was always struck by how thoughtful and welcoming you were. Seeing that, and the way you wrote about inclusive writing, was part of what led me to feel more comfortable getting more involved here and I wondered how you were doing.

Thank you so much for everything you brought to this community. I hope you’re enjoying the sunrises, and are as comfortable as possible :heart:

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Love you too, Godfeather. May you enjoy your final days, and may you be at peaceful sleep afterwards.

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Wow, I very much remember you fondly from the forums. You won’t be forgotten. I wish you peace and comfort.

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Fellow autistic British person here, I’ve never posted before, I just wanted to say I wish you peace, comfort and hope you continue to be surrounded by love. I wish you and yours the best, I hope you get to be hugged tight if you so wish. Thank you for having existed and the world is lucky to have you around for even a second longer. You’re loved, you have had impact, without you what you’ve done steps you’ve took etc things wouldn’t have panned out the way they have, we have a ripple effect. I’m so glad these past few years have been good to you, to share space with you is a gift. Life is a strange thing, this subject matter in of itself gets me emotional, it’s hard to grasp, what is grief if not love? Much warmth to you. Thank you for sharing, thank you for everything. :two_hearts:

As others have said we’ll watch the fireworks for you! However an idea, is there a way where you can see fireworks in person somehow? It must be hard to set up or figure out the logistics or how to get that to happen with people around you at the moment/through this time but just a thought. Not sure on rules about fireworks if they’re even available if it’s legal where it’s allowed to do it, I’m sorry if it’s been thought about already. I wish you all the sunsets/wondrous sights possible. :heart_with_ribbon:

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Thank you for coming back to the forum and sharing your words, your wisdom and your story, FairyGodfeather! I don’t think we ever interacted much, but through my first years in the forum, I always saw you as someone so urbane, gentle and intelligent. Your words always seemed to hit the mark, and you could balance prodding questions of growth with kindness in equal measure. I remember a post where you said “There is a place for discussion and challenge, and a place for escapism, and we need both”, and it made a huge impression on a teenage me, it became one of those small truths that shaped the way I relate to art.

I’ve never forgotten you throughout all the years you’ve been away, and it makes me smile to know that you’ve had many good times and memories to go along with it.

Thank you for taking your time to write a message for us. I’m misting up and at a loss for words, but I wanted to say that I’ll never forget you, thank you for being a blessing, thank you for your kindness. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

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Thank you so much.

It’s so strange being here. I always thought I’d just want to die one day without knowing anything. But now I have this instead it’s such a gift. I can give people closure. There’s no unsaid things or regrets. And part of that is I made it a policy years ago to specifically tell people, in writing when they’re doing good.

It’s so easy to make complaints about things. I used to love giving compliments, not just Thank-you but I know certain supermarkets for instance run reward schemes for staff, so any time I got good service I’d either tell their supervisors or write it in the customer comment book. The amount of people who were surprised that was I wasn’t writing complaints was a sadly high.

I wrote so many Thank-you cards. Made them too with my limited craft experience. I learned its about the process, the fun in doing it. It’s important to do things for fun and the joy of it. I loved how choice of games and host of games also combine that with the possibility of getting published and combines writing and gamedesign and it’s so good.

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I am so sorry to hear of your news, though what a beautifully written good-bye. :heart: I’ve just gotten through chemo and radiation myself, and while I’m currently in remission - I’ll always have a fear of getting such news in the back of my mind. I hope if it ever does happen, I can look back without regret as well, and be as strong and brave as you. Many blessings in your final days, you will be missed. ☆

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Thanks everyone for replying, I’m so touched. From old friends and new. And wow the people who have posted for the first time. I’m so thrilled to see how vibrant and alive this community still is.

I wish I had the capacity to reply individually. Those hearts are all meant. Every comment cherished. Every kind word means so much to me. Love you all.

Love you Jason but I’m going to be selfish and I want to keep this forum all to myself and not for my family to receive cards that will inevitably be binned when I’m gone. Which doesn’t mean the sentiment is not appreciated. If I’d more time the answer would be different, i love cards and tangible items, but with what I have left, while I’m sure you’d manage to make something happen despite the oceans between us I’d rather effort was spent elsewhere. Just think of me when you see a pigeon cooing about somewhere, or perform an act of kindness, or plant something, or scatter some seeds. And if you want to post about it here and keep the memory alive so be it.

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Congratulations so much on remission and I wish all the best for you.

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I’m so sorry to hear.

I joined just after you’ve left I believe, but as so many others seen your posts around.

May the time you have be joyful, and thank you for everything.

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I’m glad you are apart of this community! We won’t forget you❤️ thank you for being with us

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I’m sorry to hear about this.

I remember lurking and back reading through your posts, even though we never interacted. I still remember the fairy godparent story concept, and I’ll remember you.

I hope that you’re comfortable and have peace.

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And sorry I’m getting a bit scattered hence all these replies. It’s not about the fireworks themselves. Fireworks scare animals and are dangerous and it’s just that there’s an annual firework display and I’m agoraphobic, and despite the city firework display taking place five minutes from my old house it took me years to meet my goal of actually going out to see them. And managing that, with crowds of strangers outside, finding a spot where I could see without being overwhelmed was such an accomplishment. I love the bright colourful lights in the sky and how magical the sky looks then, but it’s as much one of those little loves of which there are so many. Like the sunrise, whe I’d drag myself out at 5am to watch the sunrise over the City or the sea that too was magical. Loved watching the mist roll off the City and those rays of light.

But also loved the moon and looking at that. Loved when we could see the sky full of stars, and sad I haven’t seen the aurora borealis lately despite there being spots next to me where it can be seen. (As a child I was so unimpressed, yawn sky is glowing green, yawn moon is not turning red during the lunar eclipse, oh don’t look solar eclipse, wow some old rocks in a field (those were standing stones), yawn another castle.

It’s about appreciating what’d there. My city has a light festival in February every year, and there’s also a group that works so hard to make it accessible. And it took me years to actually go and whe I did it was magical. And people were so kind. I had so many panic attacks there when I did go but it was worth it, the whole overwhelming experience. And while I took photos, I did my best to also be there in the moment, soaking it I without recording.

My city also runs a street art festival, and I love all these unexpected bits of art we have around. Quirky bits of old architecture, the new streetart. It was the painted doors I liked best, where theres a path through the city you can follow all these random doors that have been painted by local artists. They’ve pulled down my favourite unicorns fighting seagulls mural, and I’ve no idea if the trash unicorn (which is another favourite of mine) is still there but street art is temporary and doesn’t mean it doesn’t have meaning,

I had a bucket list, which was drastically shortened when I managed to finangle a less vague life estimate from them, and shortend all the more when I realised how little energy I have and I can’t walk any distances anymore. And my bucket list is now mostly remembering the things I have done and sharing it.

I wanted to see some owls, there was an owl rescue centre nearest where I lived, but I never managed to visit them to pet some birds. But hey I’ve seen owls before wild, and I wasn’t able to see the owls in the woods near me, that’s OK. I got to see a guy with falconry birds outside one day and actually built up the courage to go down, talk to him and see the birds, and that was great.

I’m not going to get to pet some highland coos, but I’ve seen them before, and I had an amazing day out at the local petting zoo. (It was all farm animals I have so many funny photos of.) I went to the zoo years back, and loved looking at the tiger studying everyone from above unnoticed while everyone rushed through its exhibit to see the next animal. But my favourite was the porcupine. I loved watching that porcupine. It’s funny that to some of us skunks and porcupines are exotic, while to me, its hedgehogs that are common place I grew up with them in the garden.

(Having to retype this hospital WiFi ate the last part of my post)

All of this is to say its not about the fireworks, it’s about everything and appreciating what’s there. Depression stole so many of the small joys of life from me, and I’m so fortunate I can feel and appreciate them again. It used to be so much hard work. I envied people who were naturally happy.

Smell the roses, pet the dogs, enjoy the little things.

I’ve got pet a dog on my bucket list and that’ll happen and if it doesn’t well I have so many fond memories of dogs, and I’d much rather people did something joyful for themselves, maybe share it with others i loved sharing pics of things with friends, made the world seem so much closer and let me visit places I never would otherwise.

I hope that explains things.

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I pray I have even a tenth of your wise and beautiful spirit when my time comes.

I hope Marigold makes you smile.

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Argh! This post was a roller-coaster. Started with the high of seeing an old friend again only to plummet at the thought of loosing them. Then ending somewhere in the middle watching the sunset and remembering when.

Our time together here only overlapped briefly but I remember you being one the handful of voices that made me unlurk for the first time almost a decade ago. You were then as you are now a force for positivity and goodness and I am grateful to have the chance to wish you well one last time.

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I’ll be praying for you, and that you find peace and comfort in your final days.

I don’t recall if I ever read any of your posts before, but just reading your words now makes me hope I did. Just by reading your words tells me your soul is kind.

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as a lurker from the old days lemme tell ya youll never be forgotten our feathered friend, you can be sure of that much

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Dear Fairy Godfeather

I wish you peace and goodness.

Being a longtime lurker of CoG since it had but three games, I can assure you that your name has been etched into the hearts of many in this community. Your comments have always been well-thought out, memorable, and tactful.

We don’t know each other, really. Yet, I remember what I felt and feel when reading one of your comments- always with hope that one’s writing can be improved, that their stories can be elevated.

I can’t speak for others, but you have changed my perspective multiple times simply through words. You have made a difference.

“The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched, they are felt with the heart.”
Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

I love you, and we will miss you.

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Dear Godfeather, welcome back.

You know, one of the coolest things about writing is how it immortalizes the writer. Even the smallest words–a note in the margin of a book, a forum post, a card–can outlast us. Sometimes they carry a complaint carved into clay four thousand years ago, sometimes they are technical notes…
Sometimes they carry kindness. Yours will.

I truly hope the doctors are wrong. My uncle once faced an ALS diagnosis, and though it brought fear and sadness, he lived much longer than anyone expected. Not long enough, of course, but long enough to show how deeply he was loved. And that’s the measure that matters: as long as someone feels your time here wasn’t enough, you can be sure your life has brought love.

Even if the doctors are not wrong, you will not be forgotten. Your words, your playtesting, your kindness on this and other forums—they’ll remain. People will remember them. People will remember you.

I’m glad to know these past years have brought you happiness. If I can’t wish you much more happiness now, I can at least wish you all the peace you need in this moment.

Sending you a warm embrace.

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I never had the chance to interact with you, but from what I’ve personally seen and based on what others have said you were kind, supportive, and an admired member of this community. I’m so sorry to hear about your illness but am happy to hear these past few years have at least brought you happiness. I don’t know if you’re the religious sort, but God bless you and your loved ones all the same.

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