these to me are the two things leon has to square during the campaign: the fact that it is not going to be possible for them to take back param without using phantasma and the knowledge that doing so will always hurt and one day likely kill mc. this is the sort of choice the leon of the white fangs would have really balked at, but i think he felt like he failed julius by not being able to stop mireil from killing him; failing to take back param would be the final, ultimate failure of everything julius believed in, and it’s his express responsibility as king not to let that happen.
i think, without either of them really knowing it, something fundamentally broke in leon and the mc’s relationship after leon became king. before the ball, if you’re doing the leon-mance, a big chunk of what he and the mc have in common is they’re both huge bleeding hearts who want to save everyone. leon approves of them doing some truly dangerous bonkers shit (i.e. some adventurous uses of spirit gates at the bandit encampment, saving everyone at the plague village but passing out) if it helps people.
this comes from a good place from both him and mc. mc’s martyr complex is very interesting to me though bc with only two notable exceptions, every important person in mc’s life before the white fangs treated them like a resource. i don’t think they have any idea of how to set healthy boundaries of what other people should demand from them. i think subconsciously they anticipate that all relationships are extractive on some level.
so while the repercussions of overextending themselves are fairly minor and short-lived, this is all well and good. but that changes dramatically after mireil shows up. we have a hideous intersection between leon’s need to avenge julius and knowing that phantasma is the only way to do it and the mc’s expectation that if you want to be valued/loved/safe, you have to be providing something.
i am kissing you on the mouth for this @Terin_Lost. this is what i would say is the grand product of the change in the relationship that mireil brings about. by the time of the pyre, leon had been ready to sacrifice the mc for years because he’s the king and that’s what he feels his duty to param is. he feels guilty, but in the end, he never expresses any squeamishness about the toll its exacting on mc (that’s ilya!).
i dont doubt at all that he loves them wholly (platonically or romantically), but after mireil shows up, it’s not a love without expectations. and it’s not like. a super enjoyable way to be loved. and i don’t think he would still love them if they were willing to walk away. but that’s just my take; it is fantastic to see what everyone else thinks.
it is also my great dream for my mc to one day have like a normal relationship with another human being.
also i hope no one interprets this as leon bashing. the rotting of this relationship enchants me. the most divorced couple energy of any if. the mountain goats wrote no children about THEM