Here are my long overdue thoughts of my run with my final visitor in Fernweh - Victoria āVickyā Delgado. Sheās my MC for Jamesā route.
Vicky turned out to be a lot similar to James. Sheās stoic, logical and she likes to analyze everything. I find out that I tend to pair the LI with a similar MC when Iām not playing my main MC Joy. The only exception is Lily/Silas ā they are nothing alike.
Now, I want to delve again into the thing James said here:
Summary
The silence persists with James continuing to avoid looking directly at you.
His eyes jump up and then down when a rafter or a light fixture falls in the background. The occasional crash or bang has become common as the heat loosens things within the house. He cautiously presents the lit candle to you, as if introducing the concept of fire to a child, before touching the flame to the edge of the window, helping it spread and devour your home.
āAt least this time you will stay gone, nothing is re-opened, and there will be no more festering. Itās for the best, Victoria.ā
You balk at how James could possibly think this is the best outcome, but he doesnāt see your expression, since he turns away and pushes past the others to leave.
What is re-opened? A gate, a portal, a rabbit hole? Something broke the loop? Again we know MC is the anomaly which disturbed ???ās game. I hope weāll get some clarity and answers in Book 2.
Also James is so adorable in his denial and his trying to be ahm, āprofessionalā and not showing his crush. I have a feeling he just canāt believe that MC will choose him. Have a little more self esteem, James, please.
Summary
Iāll go with James," you decide.
James stops surveying the empty, dirt path for any approaching cars as soon as he hears you say his name, nearly pulling something in his neck from snapping it around to make eye contact with you. āMeā¦?ā He just said that way too softly, which is why James clears his throat to speak again before Reese makes a wisecrack or Silas tries to help. āIāll be glad to pair up with youāfor the search effort,ā he quickly tacks on the last part, trying to maintain a professional tone.
Silas shoots a silent look of warning at Reese who seems poised to say something, but he relents with an eye roll. āThe groups are all settled then. See you both later.ā
You watch the other group depart and head into the dense tree line; they seem to disappear within seconds, except for the occasional snatches of light you strain your eyes to notice.
āWe should probably head in there,ā you suggest, raising your flashlight to help point the way. Only now does James unroot himself from his spot directly across from you. He walks over and nearly walks past you, until he pauses by your side and does not move a single muscle since his rigid bearing is back in place.
"We should stay close togetherāfor safety reasons," James awkwardly adds.
He doesnāt take the lead, allowing you to set the pace, so you can walk side by side.
I really like how supportive is Beckett in this route
Summary
Beckett glances away from untangling some headphones, popping in both of the earpieces and offering a thumbs up. āIām not in a rush. Take your time with Detective Corvin,ā he encourages you, reaching for a book to increase the illusion of privacy. āI think he seems nice, especially to youā¦ā
Some funny moments from this run:
Summary
James remains absolutely silent as he continues to observe you.
You peel away some of the bark on the stick to make the grip not as coarse and scratchy against your palm. This branch has a decent amount of reach to it relative to your height; it could be used to whack or smack something a distance away. The sensation of being watched motivates you to glance up to see that James has an unreadable expression on his face. āWhat?ā
āI have a gunā¦?ā
He phrases the statement more like a question that is laden with confusion. His eyes arenāt really focused on you, but they are trained on the stick itself, which seems to be the reason why James is starting to frown, though itās somewhat sulky. He has always had a protective streak ever since childhood. āBut I donāt have a gun,ā you counter, hefting the stick higher in the air. āThis is a backup so Iām not completely defenseless.ā
āRightā¦ā James stretches out the word, no longer sizing up the branch that will do minimal damage against whatever shredded a wild boar to death. āNo contact with the predator that did this is the best outcome. We need to warn the others with the walkie talkie.ā
āGood idea,ā you agree, turning to leave with your stick raised at the ready.
Summary
āDelgado, are you bored of the Detectiveās silence?ā
Reeseās voice emits from the speaker, though it is a little crackly, you can hear the conversational lilt to his question. āNo, thatās not why Iām calling,ā you reply, releasing the button once you are done talking.
āSo, youāre just bored of him in generalā¦? I would recommend giving him time.ā
James heaves a low sigh, quickly unhooking his walkie talkie from his belt with a little more force than needed so the plastic clip produces a sharp, snapping noise. āReese.ā He says the name more like a terse warning than an actual greeting. āThe forest isnāt safe. You and the others need to head back to the road now. Over.ā
Summary
He isnāt taking you seriously, which is why you decide to act.
Knocking the flask out of his other hand is easy; you aim for the base of it, practically launching it at James because it slips between his fingers from the upwards force. He doesnāt move or rear back; instead, he remains eerily still as some water douses him and the metal container falls noisily to the ground. Rivulets dampen his shirt, but you stare as the fabric grows stiff within seconds, fine ridges forming in the cotton material as if the liquid became flash frozen on contact.
That is definitely not normalā¦
āYouāre not James,ā you fiercely assert.
āAnd you should be grateful for it,ā he warns. āShow some gratitude.ā
You glare at this thing that canāt be James, wishing you had thrown the flask at his head.
And Vicky's ending stats
???ā¦
The best games have multiple rounds; do not become cocky over a single, trifling win that required help. What is one to many? Itās insignificant at best when you will inevitably fail.
There is certainty in that failure; is that why you hesitated to immediately walk away�
None of those later steps were thoughtless or automatic; you knew better, but persisted.
Consistently defying the rules accrues more and more mistakes that you will buckle under; there will be no bending, not when your actions express blatant disregard. This level of defiance is rare. We have time to remedy that undesirable trait and break you into your role.
Your first kill was a performance meant for an audience of one. You satisfied a dark need, not unlike the creature being taught to drain things rather than get nutrients from the soil.
Life or death situations can test your limits, though being at home in a known, comfortable environment can induce an honesty that is even more telling. Yours was exactingly recreated. The paint colors, types of furniture, treasured photographs, and every other painstaking detail werenāt good enough for you, were they? It felt wrong, but appeared familiar because itās yours.
The cloche delivery was designed with you in mind, or at least who your mind wanders to.
Somehow being able to sense that wrongness is why you refused contact; you will yield.
In the end, your mother was angry too; perhaps, you inherited some of her fire.
Oh, was that too soonā¦? Wordplay is something you appreciate, though this context may burn you up inside rather than tickle out a smile or a laugh; she certainly wasnāt smiling.
Your ending is near; we both know this, but how exactly it will play out is where the fun lies.
Until we meet againā¦
So, now when I have finished all of the paths my final rating of the romances so far is:
1. R
2. JR
3. B
4. W
5. J
6. S
I have to confess that B and W were equally good for me. So they can be both in third place. 
I loved the dynamics between Amber and Beckett. They were so good for each other. I put A in the mix and made him have a crush on Beckett and a bad relationship with Amber. It sure will be fun. It was a pleasant surprise I actually enjoyed the friends to lovers trope here. It had never worked for me before.
Evie and W on the other hand, are like a disaster waiting to happen. Iām so curious how this one will develop in the next book.
So, now I can officially announce I broke my record for MCs for a game (it was 4). They are 6 for every path, itās nothing I have ever done for any other game. I usually stick to one/two LI and one MC. But thanks to @lacunafiction now I have 6 girls ready and eager to continue the adventure in the town and woods of Ferweh
