I just want to thank everyone here for your invaluable feedback, which really informed the work I’ve been doing over the last couple of months! In particular:
Bugfixes:
@lazlisz “You can choose to be trans, yes, but in my game I chose that my MC told both his friends and then the game immediately went on to have them misgender him within the next few pages.” → Fixed
@LaReveuse “I turned Moysheh down but he still left with a good impression of me, so I’m expecting something like, “I still like her but she doesn’t, and I respect that a lot”, but the stat page says that he’s “head over heels in love”” → Fixed, I think, though there are a lot of edge cases!
@LaReveuse “the character glossary page is empty for a majority of the story,for some reason.” → Fixed. Pesky greater than vs less than signs!
– Features added
NEW NAME
@Glitch_Critter “would there be any way to have a trans MC who has already chosen a name for themselves at the beginning of the story?” → done!
COMING OUT TO SUITOR
@lazlisz “You seemingly can’t tell anyone else—not even your match, so you can’t even see if this person is okay with that before you decide to MARRY them”
@Vengeance “I think a decent in-between could be an initial somewhat negative and/or confused response, but coming around to it in whatever manner…”
→ there is now a VERY INVOLVED conversation available with a variety of possible suitor reactions, let me know what you think!
@transalaskan
“And having your mother try to steer the conversation away from you being a tumtum and having no way to say you don’t want it to be treated like a shameful secret… oof.” → you can now always come out as intersex to Basha/Moysheh.
TRANSITIONING IN THE EPILOGUE
@lazlisz “more possibilities for at least transitioning by the epilogue”
@transalaskan
"When the game asked how I felt about my beard if the shtetl erroneously knew me as a man, or if I wanted to experiment with presentation as a tumtum, or etc, I was excited for a possibility of actually transitioning. →
There are now many possibilities, many of them suggested here. As a matter of fact there is an epi_trans_outness variable with 9 different states (one of which is not yet implemented, but the others are). One of my main takeaways from this conversation, which freed me up a lot to write this update – freed me from being trapped between a voice that said “don’t be a meanie! let them be who they were meant to be!” and a voice that said “don’t erase historical oppression! you can’t act like it was so easy!” … the thing I realized talking too you all is that it’s a game, and people are okay with the idea that figuring out a way to come out or to transition in 1881 can be a victory condition. So to the extent that you’re still living under Mamma’s rules, or confirming dutifully to the shtetl’s ideas, or still depending on respectability and propriety (eg in marrying up to a merchant family), well, maybe that means you’re only out privately to a select few or maybe not at all. But there are a lot of other ways to live in 1881, too… and you can find them.
I’m also taking seriously a lot of signals you send earlier in the game (like that beard thing early on) to try to assess what kind of future and presentation the MC envisions…
SUITOR RELATIONSHIP DEPTH
@Elemental “the romance or especially Basha which my MC married in my playthrough is just feel force mainly on her…like after that dinner, my MC did not interact with her, did not give even go on a date with her and it went on through out the story all the way to the end, the only other time my MC saw her was during the final chapter before the epilogue” ->I would actually still like to do a little more on this, but I tried to add a little bit to a) set your expectation that arranged marriage is, yeah, kind of stilted and awkward (no unsupervised dates in the shtetl! not if you’re playing by the rules, anyway, and the merchant family is.) and b) add a little more in the epilogue about how the relationship turned out.
This “Elul update” ships as the month of Elul is wrapping up – a month of reflection, atonement, and repentance. Hopefully it helps atone for a few of my sins!
Thanks everyone, and l’shana tovah vemetukah tikatevu – may you all be inscribed in the book of life for a good and sweet year (b’ezrat hashem, better than this miskayt of a year we’ve had)!