I’m not sure how to kind of cope with the anxiety and headaches it gives me honestly. I’ve loved writing since I was young and started writing stories since I was 11 but stopped after graduating high school since my life became a whirlwind at that time, moving six times in two years. Although I did briefly pick it back up again between jobs for like 3 months before stopping again because I moved yet again.
Then I picked up writing again a year ago in August and had gotten pretty far in writing a demo up that I wanted to post on here, not Blades of Damascus, but then after having a seizure and someone close to me making fun of me about writing “erotic fanfiction” again (it wasn’t erotic it was Shakarian fluff) I ended up scrapping the story a month in writing.
Now that I’ve started writing Blades, the same thing is kind of happening again and I’m finding that my usual techniques of dealing with my anxiety isn’t helping anymore and they’re upset with me for always writing which has affected me in trying to write and get updates out on the days I planned to update.
It’s really odd because usually, this person has always been supportive of me especially when I had to stop working due to my health.
I feel like this kind of sounds like an abusive relationship but this is literally the only thing and it’s kind of annoying at this point. Various others have supported me in wanting to write as well since they see how much I love it and they realize it helps me with my anxiety and I’ve realized personally writing helps me cope with the memory loss I’ve suffered from the seizures.
I just didn’t know if anyone else has ever had to deal with this or how to keep dealing with this, since I’ve seen how amazingly supportive this community is and it’s great. Sorry for the rambling as I originally wrote this mid panic attack as well