Writing is something I typically enjoy immensely, and even more so when I can share it with an audience. However, when writing works that will be read (like, oh I don’t know, a choice based game for example…) I tend to be a perfectionist with commitment issues.
I have so many ideas that I want to bring to life and when I have to choose one I’ll start off with so much excitement, but then I’ll start thinking of all the shiny new ideas that are better. “If I develop this one, I can’t work on that one!” Because putting all the work into one idea means you can’t live in your wonderful sea of half-baked concepts that would all be amazing stories in theory, but not practice, and ones that actually require effort. And I know that it’s better to have one game than none ever, logically, but the commitment to one is just so hard.
Then I’ll criticize everything about it because I know it could be better, improved, and I always want the first to be the best. The “why do it if you can’t do it perfectly the first time?” character flaw.
In the end I’ll get so burnt out with this mental battle and put writing away for another day. Every day…
I know I’m not alone in this (it’s the writer’s curse! That dreaded fiend) and I’m pretty sure there’s a George RR Martin quote somewhere that sums this all up, but god can it be a buzzkill.