@augustus27 What are you studying in college? I ask only because I have a black belt in Judo and it makes me think of my college days.
On the thread topic, I’m confused and yet happy? I’ve come to the point in my relationship with my girlfriend where I couldn’t even imagine living without her in my life, in my house, with me. I don’t know exactly how to describe it, just see the “What is love thread”, I’m definitely in love. I want to ask her to be my wife. I know that in total and complete certainty, and I know (well I don’t know but I’m 99.9% confident) that she would say yes, it just feels like such a large step. It’s something I want to do. It’s something I should do, and I’m happy that we’ve made it this far and that we’re so close. I’m hesitant I guess. And I don’t know why. Something is stopping me. Or not really stopping me, it’s just in my mind all the time and I feel weird thinking about it. It’s confusing, I know, hence the feelings. It’s just tough for me. I want to do right by her, and it’s not even like my parents don’t like her, or my friends don’t like her, or she cheated on me or something, no it’s just me and me alone. And all I want is to go through with it. I know I can. Kinda painful honestly. The only person who knows I’m even considering it is my father, and it’s not that he isn’t helpful, it’s just that he gave me vague explanations of how I could just make the final step. Thanks! I’ll do it. Probably. I think. It’s killing me.