I’m feeling melancholic and motivated. (Alliteration, ha.)
Melancholic because a few weeks ago I was at a Germany-wide academy, which is the most wonderful place I’ve been to. The word “academy” may sound boring and elitist at first, but it’s the most fun thing I’ve done in my life while also experiencing tons of resonance. I was in the theatre course and discovered I want to do drama, I met tons of open-minded, crazy, energetic people, who have reminded me how to live again. This summer was like a rebirth for me and I’m so, so, so unbelievably sad that you can attend an academy like this only once. I hate that I was so depressed during those 3 academy weeks since I’m sure I could have experienced even more and talked to even more people and made more friends and had even more joy if only my mental health hadn’t held me back.
Now that I’ve been there and experienced what happiness can look like, I’m determined to achieve that in my daily life too by being motivated and staying positive and so on. I may not have beat my depression at the academy, but I feel that I can do it now and I want to. So badly. Hence I’m working toward that. Hope is everything.