It comes really easily to me, for some reason. Might be all the Homestuck I read as a teen,
This sounds really interesting. I will have to check it out when Iām not about to go to bed.
Is āfutchā a combination of āfemmeā with ābutch?ā Interesting. Also, what is āgaladragriel?ā
Thinking about Lev and pronounsā¦ being as you mention āgenderfluidā as an approximation, would it fit Levās gender if the pronouns in question shift at all? Sometimes feeling more āhe,ā sometimes more āshe,ā sometimes more ātheyā or āfae?ā
One thing I do feel with regards to āhe,ā is where you describe it as āvastly inadequateā in regards to āthe mainstream masc gay male communityāā¦ might this be a reason to reinforce that someone can be āfem and limp-wristed andā¦ a bit of a wimpā and still be a āhe?ā (With the disclaimer that itās entirely up to Lev, of course.) After all, someone can have a feminine identity but still consider himself male and use āheā pronouns if thatās who he feels himself to be. (To a lesser extent than Lev, that would describe me certainly ālimp-wristed!ā)
While Iāve heard of Polari (just on the Internet), itās entirely outside of my life experience so I canāt really comment too much on it.
Iāve less to comment on for the others, just because theyāre further away from my personal experience so I have less to say of relevance.
Thinking about Mogila, I mean, there have been people Iāve known who have sort of āpublicā pronouns and say something different for more private purposes, which might be appropriate?
Given the reservations you have with regards to Anzu using āsheā with certain people that āPeople might read this as implication that heās āof both worldsā due to being intersex or that heās āreallyā a girl because heās an effeminate, flamboyant, prettyboy trans man.ā perhaps this is something you could address in that a character could read that very same implication, thus acknowledging it, but Anzu could then explain the reasons behind it and why itās personally okay? That would seem pretty natural to me. Itās all about personal preference, yes?
Out of curiosity, what in particular was the obstacle?
You can count me in a similar boat to the above. Though in my case I have pretty much determined that I do consider myself feminine in identity, but not actually female. Like, I am a man, but I would not want to be āone of the boys,ā so to speak. For a while it was confusing because I felt like I couldnāt really consider myself feminine if I didnāt dress in a girly way or pretty myself up, but when it comes down to it, itās really just a feeling
I can also relate to wondering if I identify as male just due to my body being that way, also.
Choice of Games may have actually been helpful in regards to noticing that in second person narration I do, indeed, prefer being addressed as āhe.ā
Anyway, back on topic, this is part of why the roster of characters here sounds so intriguing.
I forgot that itās a political statement for queer people to exist
More seriously, people like the characters whom Grrozny outlines above do exist, and itās plenty realistic for all of them to be in the same story; a lot of times (not always) these people will end up drawn together into a community, or even as simply as by virtue of having things in common.
The fact that people are real and exist is reason enough to include them in stories.
I owe you a proper, long reply when itās not 8 AM and Iām not emotionally done in by a game about horses (donāt ask,), but you bring up lots of really good points that I 100% wanna discuss.
For the record, Iām very much a limp-wristed, wimpy, queeny kinda gay guy (though Iām a trans guy, so my struggles with it have been kind of different, though similar), so a lot of what Iām writing about with Lev and Anzu has been drawn, directly or indirectly or through inference, from personal experience. So yes, v. much want to talk more about the characters and their pronouns!!
Also, āGaladragrielā is just a silly pun: āGaladrielā and ādragā smushed together.
Thank you for your kind words! Iām glad so many people are finding Lev and Anzu and their relationship charming. It gives me confidence in my writing skills.
Triple-posting~
I owe a lot of people thanks just for taking a look and commenting and being so nice and welcoming! Consider this a blanket huge THANK YOU to everyone, I super appreciate all the nice comments and the attention! Iāll individually thank people when Iāve got more brains, Iāve been a bit under the weather the past few days.
Quadruple-posting, because Iām finally awake enough to give you a proper reply!
Also, for the record, Iāll be referring to Lev/Lyubouv just as āLevā (shorter to type, har) and as ātheyā, because I donāt want to make it look like Iām making a judgement call on whatās Levās ātrueā pronoun, as the author and ātheyā is the most neutral choice.
Yup! āFutchā is a term same-gender-loving women use to describe an aesthetic in their communities thatās halfway between the two or a combination between the two. I picked it up because for some reason, a lot of my friends are lesbians. And as I said above, āGaladragrielā is just a silly pun on how Lev is both feminine in that specific queeny gay boy way and kinda elfin.
Oh yes, thatād totally work! Even using second-person view, Iād have the other characters use different pronouns for Lev, depending on various factors (how they feel that day, what pronouns they asked the character to use, how the character perceives Lev, etc.).
This is true and itās something Iāve given a lot of thought to! I think, with the recent cultural shift towards masc4masc āno femmes, be discreetā in the mainstream gay community, itās important us flamers and queens and limp-wristed types speak up and assert ourselves and the fact that gender-nonconforming gay men are an important part of the gay community and wonāt be degendered or chased out. But thatās something Iām going to cover more with Anzu, I think, rather than with Lev, just because of who the characters are.
I think, on the balance of things, Lev will use (and ask people to use) āheā for the most part, because despite being genderfluid/bigender, they also feel a lot of love for and loyalty to the gay community and they do want to be seen specifically as an effeminate gay man ā¦ when they feel like a man. But sometimes, they will ask those closer to them to use another pronoun, when they feel more like a girl or more like neither or some amalgam of the two. And this all will definitely be addressed in the game, as they process their gender, talk to close friends (and Anzu) about it, deal with people not understanding and so on.
Mostly, I said āvastly inadequateā RE: āheā not as a commentary on effeminate men using āheā as a whole (Iām a binary man and Iām very, very effeminate) but specifically for Levās situation. Which, er. I failed to make clear. Mea culpa.
This is probably what Iāll do! Itād be an interesting discussion/branch to include, for certain. And like, this is specifically why I want to use second-person POV: so the narrative doesnāt gender the character, only the character themself can have the final say on what their gender and pronoun sitch are and the other characters can be kind and understanding or they can be dicks about it. I could achieve the same thing with a first-person POV, but uh, I donāt like writing first-person POV. It feels weird to me.
Yes!! Anzu would definitely address it and I totally plan on having branches that have conflict of that nature and how itās resolved/not resolved and how Anzu handles it.
ChoiceScript is more geared towards stat-based branching and choice-making; I prefer quality-based branching and choice-making. Itās possible to do that in CS, but itād just be ugly to code. Itās much easier to do in ink.
Thank you for your interest and your kind words and your thoughtful commentary.
WE HAVE A PARTIAL DEMO WIP!
Itās the first half of one of four parts of the prologue. Okay, itās part of the first half. Thereās still a couple of branches to add. It introduces Anzu, somewhat, and some of the world.
I would love all and any feedback, including proofreading, but mostly I want feedback on:
- how fun it is as a CYOA game
- how good it is as a story and specifically an interactive story
- how good the character writing is
- how coherent it is
Thank you!
The demo isnāt loading for me - I have a Mac and am using Safari. Is there another combination that might work better, or is it something else?
Try Firefox or Chrome? It definitely works on MacOS with both of those (at least, it works for me and for a friend).
Yes, itās working in Firefox. Thanks!
Itāsā¦ weird, but in a nice way. Itās very Lovecraftian (and I think I noticed a few references), albeit fortunately sans the racism and sexism. I like Anzu, although Iām wondering why heās āstockyā if heās living on the streetsā¦
Shoot, nice catch. Heās kind of a squat, solid build, even as a kid, but heād be skinny if heās living on the streets even if his frame is broad.
I wrote all of this in one session today, so thereās a few silly goofs.
I put a link to the demo in the OP!
Iām hoping I can have an update out today or tomorrow, but Iām making no promises.
Main thing is you continue to work on it. Believe in yourself; the rest of us will follow.
Thank you for sharing this! Iāve had a nose through it and enjoy the rich setting and character details. The story flows nicely and Iām keen to see more. The setting almost feels like a character in its own right.
-I enjoy the failure in the alley - kicking the boxes resulting in pain and annoyance results in something fun and characterful rather than a plain old āthat doesnāt work, sorryā
-However, the fact that the window is the only thing you get from the alley means that the pace slows down a bit while youāre looking through the alleyway objects - it might be worth adding something useful or shiny that you can gather or discover there, or use to get into the building.
-Iād enjoy being able to try to sneak in through the front door - including the option makes me want to try it out even if it would be stupid! Maybe we could knock and run away, but the wizard doesnāt emerge?
-Iād like to know what Anzuās twinās name is, it feels slightly strange having her described as āyour twinā while considering myself and the house. Is there a mystery to do with their whereabouts or state of being? Iād love to see more hints about the twin during the intro.
-āYou think thatās really cool, even though you also think heās got some real poor taste, to be a dark wizard and live in a cheery yellow houseā - this made me smile!
-The description of the wizardās bathroom in terms of what Anzu doesnāt have and the way he is opportunistic about the opiates is characterful and evocative
-Iām excited to see more of the characters!
āThe setting feels archaic and non-Anglophone, a bit of a late 19th century/early 20th century feel. The worldbuilding fits together nicely, and especially noteworthy is that although itās heavy on introducing lore and facts about the world, it feels contextually appropriate. ie, the description of the house and the Nizn-wards, although it contains unfamiliar words, makes sense to me because the sentence structure helps to solidify it. It feels cohesive!
-Iām intrigued about the reference to carnivorous plantsā¦ I feel that the fantastical setting comes through well across the board in a nicely accessible way.
A few housekeeping notes:
-I played on a Windows laptop using Chrome, playing the 02/11/16 version of the demo
-When I started out with considering things about myself that are simpler, the choice buttons went away and I had to restart, although when I did this after other considerations, they were there as expected.
-When you click āLook in the medicine cabinetā there isnāt a gap before the next paragraph whereas there is a gap for the other times you make a choice.
-Typo: āYou and your twin could even get a night a motelā
Overall itās really promising and itāll be very cool to see where you go with the project. Itās not like anything Iāve seen before which is extremely exciting!
I atenāt dead.
Updates coming soon! Including a potential change in format! Exciting developments afoot!!
The link doesnāt work for me, it comes up with page canāt be found.
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