I haven’t finished the demo yet but there’s so much I already feel like might be leaning towards the theory of MC being a serial killer. The triggers were a huge clue, tbh. The spouse isn’t abusive in any way, and if they were, you’d have mentioned it. Then there’s the stuff about the cat being named Hannibal. Who the eff names their pet Hannibal? There’s the stuff about child abuse, pretty run of the mill serial killer origin story. MC can be very self-righteous; our attunement increased when we blamed the humans; and of course, lots of empathetic people also hate the meat industry but then they just turn vegan and don’t start hunting. What does “hunting” mean? Whom are we hunting? Also, we’re anomic. I know our spouse downplayed its meaning but saying we’re anomic in the psychiatric sense rather than the sociological one is pretty damning. Our spouse knew us when they were 15 and we were 20 and I feel like we might have “groomed” them to assist us in our madcap killing sprees, and they might have been instrumental in helping us cover up some of our crimes. Then there’s the hospital stuff and the brain stuff. We’re obviously very intelligent and multilingual but we never really achieved the great heights we could have…and there is a slight hint of bitterness there. And when we nearly drowned, everyone thought we died, so it all “worked out”.
Anyway, that’s my theory. There’s plenty more contributing to it, but if all of this ends up being a red herring, I salute you and your writing. Speaking of the writing, it’s very evocative and I really like it!
I did notice a small typo though.
Schrödinger is misspelt.
Anyway, instead of sleeping, I’m now going to finish the demo and come back and edit my reply if it ends up being something else!
Edit 1: Oh, and obviously I forgot the import of our dream where everyone was mocking us. No matter how much we tried to blend in, we stood out and were mocked and called all sorts of names. A remnant from the time we were abused by our foster parents? (I’ve decided our spouse and we were foster siblings because why else would we have lived together without being in love for so long?) Or simply paranoia?
Edit 2: All right, I agree with everyone on MC and Spouse being the c-word. And I’m going to go right ahead and say that it all started when MC murdered and ate the abusive foster parent. Lol! The scene with the blood delicacies killed me.
Edit 3: Erinyes, the dispensers of righteous punishment. Oh my gosh, at this point I really hope it isn’t what we think it is, because it has become too obvious. And hey, if it really isn’t and these were all red herrings, I will flood this post with surprised Pikachu faces!