Oh god, I need to sit down. -is in the feels blanket fort- This was really, really good! I mean yeah I understand a lot of peoples concerned with certain subject matter that cropped up. I appreciate how the Author came in a explained his justification, which I deeply appreciate. Such as Kumi, I adored her, and I hate what happened to her happened but, it ripped my heart out, but I figured it was to highlight just how far these men of supposed honor have fallen, and yeah I just thought samurai were supposed to be selfish and corrupt but until that moment I didn’t think they were that horrible. Yeah, people who follow orders despite the needs of the innocent or corrupt where they might take form those in need. But to think they are that horrible. I now relate wholeheartedly with the MC in the sense of hatting the current Samurai system of the story and will now forever have an immediate distrust of any samurai character he might introduce in the future. So while it did rip my heart out, it had an impact on me in that sense.
Though the largest hit to my feels and feel free to judge me for it, was what we learned about Jun/ko. Like holy crap, I gasped like some sort of soap opera diva when I asked Sensei why he would choose my gal to be his heir.and found out what Jun/ko’s father likely did to them. I’ve only done my hetro calculating, charming Chivalrous, lady MC route (finals prep has sucked up a lot of time I would prefer to be curled up with this book, a cup of tea and fruit tart. So I’ve yet to see my MC who has Junko as their ex-lover if the phrase of their father’s “weakness” -cringes- changed based on their gender. Though assuming that it does change based on their gender, it just put the whole first scenes in Book 2 in a whole new light.
Like oh my god, it put a whole new sad and dark tilt on their obsession with Masa and the MC’s attachment and concern for them. Let alone almost all of the lines took a whole new context. LIke their obsession thinking the MC is attached to their innocence, something Jun/ko never had the chance to have. Their jealousy now I think comes from someplace far darker than their insanity. And oh gosh that made me cry a little for them.
It by no means JUSTIFY, anything they have done, but god it does make me sympathize with them and want to do something to help. Just something. (which is why I nearly teared up when Devon dropped the hint that there might be a moment to offer comfort and reconcile with them in relation to this. Again this is a thing that I was able to relate with the MC when their heart practically broke apart after talking to the memory of their Sensei and broke down realizing they never saw or noticed what had happened to Jun/ki when they might have been reaching out to them in possibly more than just a sexual way. (Though kids that’s been through something as horrible as that, they have a lot of trouble socially connecting beyond that if they develop an attachment to someone. There is a social stunting and warping that comes from such acts that I’ve read up on in a number of psychology and sociology classes I’ve had that just makes my heart hurt thinking of it.)
Though that does make me wonder what made Jun/ko fixate on the MC or fall in love with them? Could the MC have one of their frequent laps of kindness and did something kind for Jun. (such as tending to an injury they gotten after training.) or was it something else? WAs it simply the fact they were there or could it even be that at first the MC was someone they could beat and they were attracted to the power dynamic that someone was weaker than them? I’m personally voting for the first one, just cause gosh darn it I hope there was some fluff in that relationship at one point!
Though yes I’m still reeling. I’m going to have to do a route just for an MC wanting to reconcile with Jun/ko, Tosh was my last run which I so get peoples feels for the end there cause that made my heart break there too. Pretty much this whole book broke my heart and I don’t regret it. I have my fingers crossed the next one will patch some of it up at least!